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You Gotta Know When To Fold 'Em

Or, if you can't say something nice...

Asha Sanaker
Apr 19, 2021
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I am a big fan of memoir as a genre. Though I’ve never written exclusively in that vein, my experiences absolutely stand at the center of everything I write. One of the truisms of memoir that is memorable and moving for those that read it is that it doesn’t settle scores. Which doesn’t mean that the writer doesn’t get to have a perspective or an opinion about right or wrong, heroes and villains, in the stories they tell. As Anne Lamott, a favorite memoirist of mine, famously said:

You own everything that happened to you. Tell your stories. If people wanted you to write warmly about them, they should have behaved better.

At the same time, honesty and integrity aren’t inherently the same thing. It isn’t possible to be in your integrity without being honest, but it is absolutely possible to be honest without integrity.

Honesty with integrity is vulnerable.

Honesty with integrity demands accountability and testing.

Honesty with integrity always deepens connection and growth— someway, somehow.

But I am reminded, as I sit here trying to write about honesty and integrity at this particular moment in my own life, of another favorite saying by Ms. Anne:

You can safely assume you've created God in your own image when it turns out that God hates all the same people you do.

So, I’m going to step away from the battlefield for today. I need to marinate on all of this a little longer before what I am carrying on my heart can be both honest and integrous. I’ll get there, promise. And you all will be the first ones to know.

Image by lisa runnels from Pixabay

Sometimes it’s easier to see the cracks and missing pieces in other people’s stories than our own, so feel free to send me any questions about truths you’re wrestling with at the moment. It might actually help me, by extension, clarify my own thinking.

I wish you all good grace in managing your own truth and integrity. Be back with you again on Friday, hopefully, a little clearer.

Much love, Asha

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Katy Rugg
Apr 19, 2021Liked by Asha Sanaker

It is this process of discernment - knowing when more discernment is needed, specifically, that I have found most valuable in my upbringing and experience as a Quaker. My Aunt calls it my ‘Inner Clearness Committee.’ It came to mind reading what you wrote, and I offer that up in support of your process and your heart, that may need some holding right now. ❤️

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Anna Rain
Apr 19, 2021Liked by Asha Sanaker

whoof. holding you and this process tenderly and gently.

i have been getting a bunch of insight and support in my own wrestling from _the things that scare you_ by pema chödrön and _anatomy of the spirit_ by caroline myss

carolyn hax also often has wise words for me, and these have helped me recently (i paraphrase): "let acceptance come first; understanding may or may not come after that, but you can start with acceptance of what *is*."

also: breath, breath, breath and leaning into the discomfort of the moment

i'm sad for you and for the pain of right now

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